I have come to many decisions in that time. Also, to many realizations. I have seen several sides of myself that I had not in a long time, so long that I didn't remember them until I ran smack dab into them. I like when that happens. I like when I remember who I am, who I've been; it's bittersweet, but it goes a long way.
It's really hard losing yourself like this. Some might think it's a great chance to start over, and it is. It's also terrifying. I have gone from audacious and living without regrets to utterly risk-averse and hesitant. Apprehensive only lasted a few minutes and I jumped right over the fence. It is infuriating. It is over.